My life goes on

While I say that, I find myself thinking about Bella.

--Where is she?
--Is she okay?
--Is she alive?

I can say with honesty, my cat has vanished.  I feel horrible and very much at fault.  Had I not allowed the Mom Cat to have her kittens here, Bella would be here and not lost somewhere.

Before the kittens of 8 last year, I was the owner of 4 cats.  Three indoor and 1 outdoor and life was good.  However, someone had to move and leave their cat.  They just had to for whatever reason.  Do people not realize what they do to others when they make decisions like that?  Did I want the addition of 9 cats?  NO!

I was lucky to have found homes for the majority with the help of a neighbor, but we shouldn't have had to.  It was not necessary had that family taken some responsibility, but no, they were rednecks, slackers whatever you want to call them.  Abusers too.  Who leaves a family member behind?  Losers.

I pray for my lost kitty every night.
I pray she is alive and if not, that she didn't suffer.
Mostly though, I pray she will find her way home to me.

I miss her with all my heart.

Dear God, protect and bless all beings that breathe, keep all evil from them, and let them sleep in peace. Amen.

--Albert Schweitzer